Sick.

So lately I have been feeling a little bit under the weather. Okay, maybe a lot under the weather. Either way, I feel like death.

Every bit of movement makes my body ache in pain while unearthly amounts of bodily fluid pour out of my nose. Gross, I know - try living it for the past 5 days. And it's getting worse.

Now, I promise this isn't one of those "pity me" posts. Rather, it is a "BYU-is-amazing-and-I-love-it-here" post.

Recently, I was suggested by one of my previous professors to join in an Education in Zion (a neat-o exhibit we have here on campus about the history of education in the LDS Church) interview and today was my interview day. Expecting the interview to be recorded, I was a little nervous when I realized that my voice is disappearing from said illness. After one of my classes, I walked up the spiral staircases to the main Education in Zion lobby and was fully prepared to tell them that I couldn't do it. Not only was my voice a wreck, but so was my exhausted mind and I just didn't feel like talking, especially to strangers for that matter.

Well long story short, I got up there and decided to just stick through it. So I did the interview.

And it was great.

I was asked questions about my experiences here at Brigham Young University and what I aspire to learn from my professors and all that jazz. And suddenly it dawned on me - I really do love BYU. I love the spiritual atmosphere that can't be found anywhere else. I love the Y on the mountain that reminds me of the great heritage this university holds. I love Heritage Halls that remind me of the strong generations that have lived in these hallowed (and old) halls before me and inspire me to someday be listed amongst those ranks. I love the Bell Tower that rings Church hymns everyday and reminds us all that we are here for a greater purpose. Our motto is "The World is Our Campus" so that we can "Go Forth to Serve." This university reminds all of its students, present and past, that there is a bigger picture for all of us to focus on.

Yes, I may not be able to breathe right now and I have two tests coming up next week and school is kind of the pits currently and the weather is gloomy and I just want to sleep for five years, but looking at the big picture, I am gaining an education so that someday I can fall into place with the BYU graduates before me that are changing the world through their testimony, their hard work, or just their plain example.

BYU is an intimidating place to be. I am constantly humbled by the brilliance that surrounds me but yet at the end of the day when I ask myself, "Am I really supposed to be here?" there is always a still, small voice that reaffirms me that "this is the place" which then of course is followed by a real nice Cougar growl ("Cougar - first down!").

I can't imagine being anywhere else.

Xoxo

P.S. Everyone should check out the new Education in Zion Exhibit when it is done and look for my little additions. :)